IV Conference

Honey was encouraging to me today. She told me that my emceeing kept her coming back to IV events because she thought I was hilarious. Even though she didn't know anyone personally, I helped her feel more connected and now she is really involved in IV.

I needed to hear that because so many times I feel like since I haven't interacted one-on-one with people that I don't make a difference in their lives. Now I kind of want to go back to emceeing and I'm scared to do the prayer group. I don't know what I should do. I can't be wishy-washy. I'll just go with my decision to focus on the prayer group and see how God uses me there or if he calls me back to emceeing.

I haven't been hearing God's voice lately about things.

How God has spoken to me:

God doesn't love me depending on what I do. He doesn't bless me because I'm awesome. He blesses me because he loves me and wants me to be a blessing to others. It's a humbling thought. God, I pray that I am someone you can trust with your resources.

I now want to make more of an effort to be prepared for my conversations with non-believers. I want intentional conversations to lead to GIGs. I want to be more intentional with Caitlyn, Ting-ya, Jessica, and Elizabeth.

I have missed a couple of great opportunities to share a bit of Christ with Jessica. God, I am so sorry. I pray for another opportunity to talk to her about You and what you are doing in my life.

God is the King of Kings and I am made in His image, so I need to be a queen of queens. I am a queen. What does that mean? That means I sacrifice my life for my people. I lead them as a servant.

I long to hear the voice of God. Here are my questions for God:

1. Is it a mistake that I'm choosing to drop emceeing?
2. How do You want me to lead this prayer group?
3. Have you been speaking to me?

I need to seek God with my WHOLE heart. Am I divided? I often have judgmental or harsh thoughts about other people.

Do justice. Love mercy. Walk humbly with God. Do justice. Love mercy. Walk humbly with God.

Do justice.

What does that look like? God, WHAT IS MY JOB??!! I am yours. I want to be all yours.

What I Want for My Life

Dear God,

God, I want to be so full of wisdom and grace. I want to know when to fight and when to let things go. In general I want to be like Jesus. I don't want to be someone who worries, but someone who trusts You all the time.

I want to make lot's of people laugh. I really love it when people love who I am. But I want to get the most joy out of giving you glory with the gifts you've given me. Creativity, humor, and storytelling

I want to be a Youtube celebrity. That would be my dream job for right now. In the future, I'd like to act, write, and direct a comedy series. I would also like to do stand-up comedy on the side. And just once, I'd like to play a troubled teen in a movie.

I don't know where I see myself living. I am open to being married, but I'm starting to feel better about being single. But I don't want to be alone when all my friends get married.

Thank you for all the gifts you've given me. Help me to use them for your glory. What are your plans for me?

I don't know what they are, but I am excited for my life. I feel like you are too. Thank you for your love for me, God.

In Jesus' Name,
Amen