Correction

Taking criticism. I'm getting better at it. But to be fair, I could be much better at it. I still get the pang of regret and self-hatred when someone tells me I need to improve. I often make excuses in an attempt justify myself. I can't stand thinking I've hurt someone, haven't done my best or am thought of poorly.

I wouldn't say I've been a stellar student this semester. I've been unmotivated and discouraged.

BUT

Yesterday I had a very productive day. I felt so good about the work I did on 4 different productions. I feel awesome about working on the final production for my film class. The guy I'm working with is fun and talented. We get along ducklings and are excellent brainstormers. I'm feeling like a go-getter again.

Lord, please heal my work ethic. I want to be a good steward of the gifts you've given to me. May I make the most of them to give you more glory. And may i be humble enough to ask people for criticism so that I can improve. And help me to practice giving. What is my role in the church? Is my church IV or CABC? In Jesus' name, make it happen!

Steps in the direction of making the most God has given me includes putting more effort into the videos I make, learning After Effects, working on as many shoots as a can, looking into making music videos, praying for a better camera, and getting a website. I really want to try to make music videos.

You know, maybe I'll live in Seattle, have my own production company, and do comedy instead of starting over in Portland. We'll see. God, how can I give you the most glory with my life?