Boys don't like me. That's ok.

When I was like seven or so I prayed that I would only date the guy I'm going to marry. God was like, "YES!" Now I'm like, "NO!" I read in Genesis how God put a mark on Cain so that no one could kill him. I'm pretty sure God has put a mark on me so that guys won't fall in love with me.

I've come to a place where I accept this reality and have turned it into a game of how long I can go without a boyfriend. So far we're at 21 years, which I believe is more common than society makes it out to be.

Society makes it seem like EVERYONE has had a sigother by 21 for sure. I have a good handful of friends who have never had boyfriends either. So I'm not alone.

My identity is in Christ. I don't NEED a man. But my goodness, I'd like to have one. They're fun.

My dad told me last summer that I would find somebody this year. The way he said it was very prophetic, but I was too scared to ask if He heard that from God or just felt it was a good guess.

Now, as lovely as that would be to find a special dude this year, I'm seriously doubting it. There are only four more months before this year is over and no guy has come along. Sure, I've liked a couple guys during this time, but of course they don't like me back. I want to come to the end of August and be able to say, "So, Dad...about finding my guy this year....Wazzzuuuuup!!?!" Is that bitterness? Probably.

I have plenty of guy FRIENDS. And no, I don't get stuck in the "friend zone." That's the dumbest term ever. If a guy likes me, no zone is going to stop him from pursuing me. Plus, most of my close guy friends have girlfriends anyway.

I find it's becoming increasingly more difficult for me to be around guys with girlfriends. Because with any of my guy friends, there's always the secret hope of something blossoming. We're only attracted to each other on a level of friendship, but it's still attraction.