people and how stupid we are

Okay, God. How can you love us so much? I'm almost mad that you love us because we are so disgusting.

Let's start with me. Today I totally failed.

I was talking to a girl for the No Secrets campaign. I was telling her that we are a part of a Christian fellowship organization. She responded with, "I figured as much."

I had no idea what to say. Truly nothing. Nothing was there at all. "So do you have a secret?" seemed inappropriate. I felt like, "I figured as much" totally solidfied all judgements she had about us. So I said something really stupid: "Yea, some people are hostile when they find out we are a Christian group." What she said: "I'm not hostile." What I said, "Okay. Cool. Have a good day."

eeewwwwugh. Who am I? Definitely not cool. If anyone comes to be free in Christ through this outreach, it definitely won't be because of people on either end of the ministry stick. It will be a supernatural miracle--not like there are any other miracles.

Also.

LORD, I am having a hard time being patient with people who don't love you or put you first. I'm like...how can they not love you? I don't understand. And how can they not believe in you? You are so obvious.

But then I remember the times when I have put things before spending time with You. And there are also times when I doubt your Word. Please forgive me. Change me.

Thank you that you have far more grace and patience than I do.

In Jesus' name,

Amen