The Rules for Mr. High-five

In order to protect my heart (for it is the wellspring of life), I need to release this...crush...this...torture....this anchor tied to my soul. The rope is disappearing into the dark ocean. If I don't let go, I know I will be next.

"Open wide your mouth and I will fill it." -Psalm 81:10

For some reason I have been missing out on all that God has for me. I haven't been seeing Him because my mind has been anchored down by stupid boys. Or stupid me in a one-sided lack of a relationship. I have been looking at what I don't have when I really have everything.

I feel like God has been speaking this verse to me as a challenge..."just see if I won't satisfy you. your desires aren't too big for me. if anything, they are too weak."

Anyway. So I'm writing this down because I want to really walk away from this crush I've had for 9 months. I could've had a baby by now for CRYING THE LOUDEST. I've said that I would move on in the past, but now it's really time. Let freedom be born!

And because I know I'll backslide if I'm not careful, I am writing down my rules:

1. I must not entertain thoughts of being with him. If I do, I must quickly turn my mind to how amazing trees and birds are.
2. I can't talk about him unless people ask, and if they do, I shall merely say, "I'm in the process of getting over him." And they they ask, "Why?" I shall say, "He's just not that into me."
3. I won't start conversations with him unless it would be rude or awkward otherwise.

I can't have more than three rules. I wouldn't be able to remember them.