Your Love is Better Than Life

So lately things have been hard. I've been so addicted to Mr. Highfive. It's torture torture torture.

And I've been fighting the lies that I am not beautiful and that I will never be loved and that God's love is not enough.

I'm tired of this.

I feel like I can't do anything...which is actually a great posture of heart for prayer. I need all my strength from God. I really don't know what to do besides pray. I am worried about classes and leading a prayer group. I don't know what will happen.

Be patient. Trust God.

HUGH! I hate doing both of those things, but it's the only place to be.

I just need to let go. I keep saying things like this, but it's so hard. I've been losing motivation to fight the good fight. And I've been so proud. I've been starting to get impatient and rude towards my parents. Living with them is hard. I miss living by myself.

"I dunno when to walk away or stand and fight
just when I've got it wrong, I'm sure I heard you right
and when my arguments are watertight you expose every hole with a flash and a flood and I know
I hear you call in the eye of the storm and I know you've had my back since the day I was born
still stoking my heart
still stirring my head
you're my pillar of fire
you're the wine, you're the bread, and

YOUR LOVE IS BETTER THAN LIFE"