Career

I know all my blogs are the same, but I don't really write them for others to read. I write them so I can process through my life and write about conflicts that could inspire writing a story in the future. Processing is best in a blog and not in a secret folder in my computer because if someone steals my computer, it's no problem. Blogs are written in the sky.

Subject for today and the days before and the days ahead. I've been having issues with my major if you didn't know. I keep putting myself in situations where I am behind the scenes, but I very much want to be in the scene, but I don't see myself being a great actor. My face doesn't look that great on camera.

I just applied for a casting internship. Really, Steph? I mean, I'm kind of interested in casting, but I really can't stand being behind the scenes. The only behind the scenes thing I like is writing, but the writing becomes the scene.

It'd be fun going on tour to different churches doing comedy, but I'm not big on church-comedy. Making fun of church is so overdone. I just want to do clean comedy. Maybe just regular gigs with comedy that's clean but enjoyed by all. I hope they'll like me. I think they will. I have a feeeeling in my bones.

Someone just randomly posted on my wall telling me that I crack them up. YAY! That makes me so happy. Dude, I'm funny. I want to have the mindset that I'm blessing people with laughter as opposed to needing attention. I'm sure I've said that before.