Strengths Test

So I took a strength's test today and found out my top strength is intrapersonal skillage which is basically reflecting a lot on oneself and circumstances and new info. Which I do A LOT, and I think it's strange that I'm intrapersonal AND extroverted. Most self-reflecting people are introverted.

Anyway, this site told me that people who are high-scoring on intrapersonal and linguistics (which I also scored high on) should keep a journal. I consider my blog my journal and I love writing down my thoughts for processing purposes.

So what's on my mind today?

I went to a Christmas party. There were so many girls with dates, but not I. Classic. I tried to stay away from Max who is now in a relationship with my friend. I was mostly successful. He came over once and said hi while I was in the middle of eating ice cubes. I commented on their crunchiness. It was a lame conversation. Got what I wanted.

You know, this is what's really on my mind...my boy bubble/force field. God has put a boy bubble around me I believe. I'm funny, smart and cute but guys never ask me out or show interest. And I believe God won't pop my bubble until the right guy comes into my life. THE ONE, if you will. Because when I was like 8, I prayed I would only date the guy I'm going to marry. Big mistake. God answers prayer.

My dad said this creepy thing last summer. I was in the kitchen with him complaining about how I don't have boyness. He said that I will....this year. How could he be so confident in that? Is this a guess? A word from God? I don't know. I'm scared to ask.

But my honest belief is that it WILL happen this year. Over the summer. When I'm living back "home" with my parents. My parents just moved, so my "home" has changed. New people. New boyness.

I think both my parents are feeling that my boyness is approaching. I feel like he's going to be kinda older than me. Like maybe 24. And he's going to make my heart go pitter-pat. I haven't let my heart go pitter-pat in a long time cuz it's poisonous.

Youtube.

This is the other thing that's on my mind. People think I'm funny and like my videos, but my popularity is not growing. STAGNATION. I've tried to make different kinds of videos to shake things up, but NO SUCCESS.

My friend, Nhat (a hilariously outgoing Vietnamese exchange student), told me he likes my videos but that I'm funnier in real life. Which struck me as odd because I felt that I didn't make a humorous impression when we hung out. OH WELL. I'll try to be more of myself in my videos. Alison, what do you think?

Oh my gosh, back to my intrapersonalness.....when people say things and I don't respond quickly enough for them, they think I'm upset or something, but I'm really just processing. I want to say the right thing. haha. Explains so much. My dad does the same thing and he scored the highest on intrapersonalness too.